The Renewal

Create A Rewarding Life. FAITH KNOWS!

I don't know where I am going with this post, or what it means, or what it will entail.

I had some drama, and some cleaning this weekend. I started to realize, crystal clear that there are certain things that we will put up with for the longest time, for whatever reason, as I am not here to speculate on the reasons...then it' s like, why, am I putting up with this.

All of a sudden, it's like a light shines in...

Had all this work anxiety this weekend, probably because, I never checked my computer after Friday, so I had this permeating feeling that chaos was brewing. It was a lot of angst over a job, not a career, just a job, one that is not very challenging at that. I hate to say that it is uneventful, I will not use the word I hate- the b---ng word that I have never been a fan of.

I was in the middle of this post the other night, and I had to shelf it, cos' my mom called me back...awww. I love my mom, she is awesome.

Have ended it with John again today, maybe this time it will stick.

Cleaned the crud off my dashboard, and my windows, threw the garbage out of my car...will have the family in the ride tomorrow for our annual jaunt to the Broadway Market for the Good Friday experience, and, it would be awesome to have the car un filthy. I'm sort of thinking that we sjould all go out and tie one on, start a new tradition...doubtful, but, entertaining to consider I would say.

I seem to be getting far less emotional about the John related crises than I used to... I guess I am just getting over the whole thing, it's been years of this over and over again.

I see that if something does not work, you cannot force it, that only makes it harder. What's done is done, we could end a lot of suffering if we could just accept these things, and get on with it, come on, life is hard enough already, I would say

As for the rest, I am hoping that I can embrace my time alone, and really, utilize it creatively, not trying to figure out what went wrong, where would I start. I would rather create, and get some order, and finally have the peace that I have been seeking.

Sounds like a plan I would say.

Time to move on, and stop being stunted and start flourishing. It is Spring after all, Easter is Sunday, and what better time to renew yourself.

I have the Window open for the first time in months, and it is so good to have the fresh air seeping in the window. I need that fresh air It has finally arrived. YAY!!!

I think it's almost time to take a shower and put the wrap on this night.

I will be back soon.

Peace ,Love, Amen, God Bless, Namaste!