Hmmmm?

Create A Rewarding Life. FAITH KNOWS!
You have to know yourself really well, o know who you are.

Thinks about that for a sec0nd and realize what that really means and reflect on that thought.

If yoou know who you are, where is the struggle?

The struggle is gone, that existential crisis is gone.

There is no longer no you to find.

The spirit goes.

You know who you are, so now what?

Does mans search for meaning continue, after man finds the meaning?

What's the point after that, when you realize what it all means, in whatever way you have arrived at it, isn't the point of this, what we know, gone?

Isn't that what it is all about?

To attain some level of awareness and experience, I mean isn't that why we are here- to experience the physical condition?

And then what...we go on to another, our spirit never dies, though our bodies will.

Always the necessity for suffering, why ?

We would not appreciate life, except for realizing that somehow, someday, all of our lives will be over. We just wants ours and our loved ones to live as long as possible. We dont want to lose, or be lost. Nobody does. It sucks. It's the sad reality that all things must pass away.

We must rejoice in all that is beautiful in our lives at all times.

So, why can it be so hard, why do we get so caught up,, and give ourselves the permission to forget that we have the privilege of the things that we have, as there are never any guarantees, and we need to remind ourselves.

I hope that makes you think. It sure makes me think, and I remember,all the ways I have allowed myself to forget, that I need to be, appreciating.

I need to remind myself, constantly of all that is sacred and good within my life.

I need to remember that I am blessed.

I get so mad at myself when I feel that I have fallen below my own personal expectations, and I get frustrated, and I realize all the ways that I fail, in my quest to do well.

I get all over my own case for all my misdealings. I know that the things that really bother me, are really important to resolve. I know that what ever it is that makes me really angry is pointing directly towards something that I do not like within myself, and I know that I have to resolve it.

This realization, like all realizations, that one has been a long time coming.

I could really use some help with this, in the most broad expanse of the word.


On that note, I will close this up, and sleep in these thoughts, wahtever they actually mean, and come to some clear headed conclusion.