Create A Rewarding Life. FAITH KNOWS!
So, I sat in front of my facebook page, leaving and going back tonight...Started about 5 different intro comments and just erased them all, and decided to come here instead.
I was bottlenecked, things in my head that I have to get out. I hate to asy that they are things have been bugging me, at the same time, I know that they are toxic thoughts, and I can't determine if I am supposed to purge them via this page, or work through them quietly within myself. It's a tough call, I know that if I don't get them out of my head, they will just continue to eat away at me. I have to think about this...quick shower, I will be back soon with some kind of clarity.
One of the best things that there is, the fresh after shower feeling, sleeping all fresh and clean is THE BEST!
So. while Im shampooing my hair< I remember that thoughts are things, and I have to purge them from my mind, not even on paper, I have to acknowledge them, and let them go, and not expend a drop of my energy focused on things that I do not like.
Why bother? I'm sure it was necessary to make me have to harness myself in, I know enough that this is the point, to practice what I preach. The only reason we lose our way is that WE JUST FORGET...Once life starts to flow, it's cool for awhile, but if we don't maintain, we lose our way. When you realize you lost the way, you struggle that much harder trying to get back there.
So, why make it hard when you are on the right track. I ask the lord to forgive me today, as I m sure I said a few dumb things without thinking, and I am sorry. I'm also sorry for the thoughts that I did not act on, that tormented me.
I think the answer is go into my day tomorrow with genuine kindness, love and compassion in my heart, with no feeling or though of anger or meanness in any way, to live in full consciousness , I have to think only good thoughts, and feel good feelings, please, please, please forgive me Lord, I will do better tomorrow, starting now.
I gather that this is the best I can do tight now, and that is okay. As It looks to me right now, that is okay, and, I am not gonna sweat it. If I get some brilliant epiphany before tomorrow, I will get back tonight, otherwise it will be tomorrow. I Love You God, Bless Us All, Thank you. Amen, NAMASTE
