Create A Rewarding Life. FAITH KNOWS...
So, Here I am again, after doing the day, I have returned to blog once more.
I will soon need to ready myself for the departure to my sisters' house for her birthday gathering. I believe she is 34, officially tomorrow that is.
I have seen utter chaos on the roads again today, it's like Holiday=morons=driving stupidity, rampant. I spent the early afternoon brain draining on the computer with the tv simultaneously. Double the mental rot..For some insane reason I decided to look up an old- first love boyfriend, the one that got away, don't worry I helped push him away. And it looks like he has a beautiful life, full of everyone that is not me. Married and I think he has a baby, no worries, I will not try to befriend him, as I see quite clearly that the ship sailed long ago. It looks as though he got the kind of life he sought, the kind I never wanted, and I know that even though I am 36, somewhat single, I still would not want that life. Hey, I'll take whatever comfort I can give myself on this one, as I remember saying to myself when we ended, that I was resolved and would never regret that. For what it is worth, there has been a great degree of insight in my life over the last 10 years easily. I have learned many lessons, changed my tune, and though I am not all the way where I want to be yet, I know that I am nowhere near the same type of person that I was then. I do believe in change, and growth, I believe I am a living, breathing example of that, and I also know in my heart that all things are possible. I punish myself for any bad thoughts, and would not so easily slip into wrongdoings and disarray, I carry a moral compass with me now, and I abide by that at all times. I say that I can only get better, as I have to this point, and that I will continue to do so, as there is no other way...
Friday, September 4, 2009
Friday 9409 About 8:45 A.M. ish
Create A Rewarding Life. FAITH KNOWS!
So here I am, day off, end of summer a Friday that stretches ahead of me, with a strange yet dedicated compulsion to tap in and check my work e-mails and see if anything big is happening there...the answer is NO, and I am glad. Let's avert any potential crises this weekend and just keep it together, so that I may be a slacker in peace. I have also realized that is is PAYDAY!!!
Yeah...Got bills to pay, car to gas up, people and cat food to buy, otherwise no major expenditures on my current agenda.
Had another butting of heads session with my pseudo boyfriend type guy friend. I don't know, some days I see that I am so over it.
In the world Michael Jackson finally got laid to rest yesterday...Two months+after the fact. Maybe the media circus will die down, and there will begin to be other stories on the news again.
I was out of work early yesterday, went somewhere I never seem to go anymore- the mall to buy my sister's birthday presents, and I see no less then 3 people texting and driving, and I just wanted to place them all on citizens arrest. And, this was like Amherst, or the border of Amherst where they just posted a major driving and text ban...Of course, I didn't see a police officer around at all. The traffic was crazy, holiday weekend and back to school shopping. There were some really good sales though, not that I allowed myself to buy anything for me.
Right now, I have all good things around me: the sound of waves coming through my headset, the rich aroma of sandalwood supreme wafting through the air, my beautiful kitties, one on either side of me, and no real stress of things to do today. A day wide open, laid out in front of me, ready to be molded to my liking.
It seems that I smiled and laughed more this week then I have in some time, and that is a really good thing. I know that I am someone who has so much potential and desire to make my life a better place. I know that I do not intend for a second to look back on this weekend with an ounce of regret, and that I will do what I can to embrace the opportunities to enjoy myself when they arise, and have faith that all is right and good in my life.
So here I am, day off, end of summer a Friday that stretches ahead of me, with a strange yet dedicated compulsion to tap in and check my work e-mails and see if anything big is happening there...the answer is NO, and I am glad. Let's avert any potential crises this weekend and just keep it together, so that I may be a slacker in peace. I have also realized that is is PAYDAY!!!
Yeah...Got bills to pay, car to gas up, people and cat food to buy, otherwise no major expenditures on my current agenda.
Had another butting of heads session with my pseudo boyfriend type guy friend. I don't know, some days I see that I am so over it.
In the world Michael Jackson finally got laid to rest yesterday...Two months+after the fact. Maybe the media circus will die down, and there will begin to be other stories on the news again.
I was out of work early yesterday, went somewhere I never seem to go anymore- the mall to buy my sister's birthday presents, and I see no less then 3 people texting and driving, and I just wanted to place them all on citizens arrest. And, this was like Amherst, or the border of Amherst where they just posted a major driving and text ban...Of course, I didn't see a police officer around at all. The traffic was crazy, holiday weekend and back to school shopping. There were some really good sales though, not that I allowed myself to buy anything for me.
Right now, I have all good things around me: the sound of waves coming through my headset, the rich aroma of sandalwood supreme wafting through the air, my beautiful kitties, one on either side of me, and no real stress of things to do today. A day wide open, laid out in front of me, ready to be molded to my liking.
It seems that I smiled and laughed more this week then I have in some time, and that is a really good thing. I know that I am someone who has so much potential and desire to make my life a better place. I know that I do not intend for a second to look back on this weekend with an ounce of regret, and that I will do what I can to embrace the opportunities to enjoy myself when they arise, and have faith that all is right and good in my life.
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