The Day After Continued

Create A Rewarding Life. FAITH KNOWS!

Go figure that I inadvertently submitted my last post 2 sentences in...
There are no accidents, maybe I am not supposed to touch that intended subject.

I struggle as of late with my own expectations and ideals. I know, that I want something different, something with more substance. I cannot yet determine if that something different is spiritual, physical, romantic. I cannot label it, and therefore, I cannot name it.

I get so caught up in the observations, that I miss the experiences.

I have the need to meet new people, and broaden my personal horizons, and this shy kid, who lives, way beneath the surface comes up, and reminds me that I should not take the chance, and the what ifs begin. I know, that it is all a bunch of crap. I realize that the life I have will not magically change into the life that I want, and it is necessary that I participate.

I just have to tap into that source of courage, find that spunky chick I know that I can be, and get out there in the world and take more risks.

Christmas is coming, and, as opposed to lots of pretty, well wrapped presents, I would really like some new, healthy, balanced friendships, and I have to get out there and start making them happen.

It seems that there is so much much excitement, and I have been sitting alone, on the other side of this imaginary wall. Everyone else is beautiful, and having fun, and meeting new people, and I am playing the role of well dressed, fashionable recluse!

I know, that is a little melodramatic. I just think that I need to get out in the marketplace of life right now, Like the TAO says. I think this is the time where the bnest thing for me is being in motion, being in the moment, and learning through the experiences, and chill a little on the independent observations. Yes, I* will still observe, I will justcall out all my strengths, harness my confidence, and get out in the world and observe life from an active, participating place. Live in it, breathe it, experience it, and see what fresh insight will arise from that perspective. So help me god. The time has come for some good, healthy, invigorating change.

Let us begin a new.

I love you god, thank you for all that you do, in all the ways you do it.

Peace, Love amen and NAMASTE!