Later In The Day, Still Friday 9409 5:45 PM

Create A Rewarding Life. FAITH KNOWS...

So, Here I am again, after doing the day, I have returned to blog once more.
I will soon need to ready myself for the departure to my sisters' house for her birthday gathering. I believe she is 34, officially tomorrow that is.

I have seen utter chaos on the roads again today, it's like Holiday=morons=driving stupidity, rampant. I spent the early afternoon brain draining on the computer with the tv simultaneously. Double the mental rot..For some insane reason I decided to look up an old- first love boyfriend, the one that got away, don't worry I helped push him away. And it looks like he has a beautiful life, full of everyone that is not me. Married and I think he has a baby, no worries, I will not try to befriend him, as I see quite clearly that the ship sailed long ago. It looks as though he got the kind of life he sought, the kind I never wanted, and I know that even though I am 36, somewhat single, I still would not want that life. Hey, I'll take whatever comfort I can give myself on this one, as I remember saying to myself when we ended, that I was resolved and would never regret that. For what it is worth, there has been a great degree of insight in my life over the last 10 years easily. I have learned many lessons, changed my tune, and though I am not all the way where I want to be yet, I know that I am nowhere near the same type of person that I was then. I do believe in change, and growth, I believe I am a living, breathing example of that, and I also know in my heart that all things are possible. I punish myself for any bad thoughts, and would not so easily slip into wrongdoings and disarray, I carry a moral compass with me now, and I abide by that at all times. I say that I can only get better, as I have to this point, and that I will continue to do so, as there is no other way...