Well, It's Wednesday, a marking day, as it was one week ago today that sweet baby left this world. Trying to handle it with insight, with attempts to pour some optimism into my spirit, trying.
Feeling off, not just today, but let's say the last few weeks. Like I'm lost, or just going along. I feel like my enthusiasm has gone off on a run without me, and left me here to just deal. I want so much to feel a degree of normalcy, and I know that there are things in my life that need changing. Funny about attachment, the ones you should sever never want to leave- and the ones you would like to keep, can't stick around. I just feel like I'm going through the motions, that everything I do is dull and without color, aside from my paintings, they are getting a little brighter, nonsensical Yes, but brighter. I put a prayer out there for all those that matter so much to me, to give us strength, love, guidance and support and hope that it helps. I seem to be talking to God alot lately, not in the conventional Let's go to church way, just working through it with him. Talking to him in the morning, and then again when I go to bed at night. I should probably talk to him more throughout the day, I just get so caught up. Let me just say, I hope he is listening, at least, I think he is. I know that me and my family could use the loving guidance, so I'll just keep asking, talking and giving my thanks.
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